I keep finding that things that I know are hitting me in new ways. I almost feel like truths that seem so elementary are suddenly quite profound in light of our current situation. Today I had one of those moments. I was reading in I Corinthians 15, and Paul is talking about the resurrection from the dead. Evidently some in the church were saying that there was no resurrection from the dead, and Paul points out that if this were the case that would translate into no hope beyond this life. This leads him to say in verse 19 "If we have hope in Christ in this life only, we are of all men most to be pitied." I found so much comfort in this! If all we as Christians had to hope in was going to be found in this life, then what reason would we have to go on whenever an inevitable tragedgy hits? If this life was it, then the loss of Poppy would be unbearable. The finality and senselessness would be maddening, and I honestly cannot imagine continuing to go on, let alone gone on with any semblance of joy. But the wondeful truth is that Jesus did rise from the dead, and everyone who is His will never really experience death. I can't imagine living one day without the hope that gives me.
Seeing Poppy leave this earth and go to be with Jesus and experience the reality of hope I have in my heart will be the hardest thing I have ever endured. Even knowing that she will be perfect and whole will not erase my own pain over her loss. But the point is, that even though I will inevitably experience the greatest personal grief of my life, my grief will not be for her! If I had any grief on her behalf, I think my sorrow would be crippling. But as it is, I know that I can have "joy through my teardrops," as my mom has written in a beautiful poem, because I know that the reality of Jesus' death and resurrection gives me hope for everyday inspite of circumstances. This is why I can praise Him in the storm.
Thank you so much for your continued prayers and support! I've realized that I will never get tired of hearing someone tell me they are praying for me because I've come know the reality of the difference it makes in my life. I never want to take one single person's prayers for granted, and I want you to know how deeply grateful we are to you.