I wanted to give a quick list of specific things we would like you to join with us in praying for.
1) I have felt very unsure since we went to the original ultrasound exactly what I wanted to pray for, other than an all out miracle. To be honest, I originally prayed that they would find her brain dead so that I would not have to carry her to term. Already, I’m grateful God did not answer that prayer! Since Monday’s confirmation of trisomy 18, I’ve really felt at a loss of what to ask for. Of course I know God is still completely capable of working a miracle, but aside from healing, I’ve been torn as to which scenario I would choose if it were totally up to me. At first I thought I would pray that God just give us what we need, and in way, that will continue to be my prayer throughout each step of this journey. But, I believe that God loves it when we pray specifically, and I have decided that what I want is to pray that Poppy gets to live long enough for everyone who loves her to get a chance to hold her. I want her to make it to birth, and I pray God will give us enough time for each person who is a part of her life to be able to spend some precious time with her.
2) We have still not decided how to approach talking with Marianna about Poppy. Up to this point, we have chosen to really say nothing at all. I have thought through the different options, and so far I just don’t know which one is best. I realize that she is just 21 months and so her level of comprehension is going to be minimal no matter what we decide. But I want to do what is best and healthiest for her. Please pray that God will show Nathan and me exactly what to say and when to say it.
3) There are so many unknowns ahead of us in the next months, and my natural impulse is to want to plan, plan, plan. I know we need to be prepared, yet at the same time I realize that one of the most difficult parts is going to be the waiting. I am praying every day that God will teach me that it’s okay to just take things a day at a time. Because of the uncertainty of the situation, the only option is just to bring each concern to Jesus and let Him take care of each one in it’s own time. Pray that God gives Nathan and me the grace to do this daily.
I am so grateful for each of you. Please know that each thing you have done, big or small, means so much! Most of all, your support in just reading and praying and caring is so important to us! I am truly thanking God for you each day!