Thursday, August 16, 2007

specific prayers

I wanted to give a quick list of specific things we would like you to join with us in praying for.

1) I have felt very unsure since we went to the original ultrasound exactly what I wanted to pray for, other than an all out miracle. To be honest, I originally prayed that they would find her brain dead so that I would not have to carry her to term. Already, I’m grateful God did not answer that prayer! Since Monday’s confirmation of trisomy 18, I’ve really felt at a loss of what to ask for. Of course I know God is still completely capable of working a miracle, but aside from healing, I’ve been torn as to which scenario I would choose if it were totally up to me. At first I thought I would pray that God just give us what we need, and in way, that will continue to be my prayer throughout each step of this journey. But, I believe that God loves it when we pray specifically, and I have decided that what I want is to pray that Poppy gets to live long enough for everyone who loves her to get a chance to hold her. I want her to make it to birth, and I pray God will give us enough time for each person who is a part of her life to be able to spend some precious time with her.

2) We have still not decided how to approach talking with Marianna about Poppy. Up to this point, we have chosen to really say nothing at all. I have thought through the different options, and so far I just don’t know which one is best. I realize that she is just 21 months and so her level of comprehension is going to be minimal no matter what we decide. But I want to do what is best and healthiest for her. Please pray that God will show Nathan and me exactly what to say and when to say it.

3) There are so many unknowns ahead of us in the next months, and my natural impulse is to want to plan, plan, plan. I know we need to be prepared, yet at the same time I realize that one of the most difficult parts is going to be the waiting. I am praying every day that God will teach me that it’s okay to just take things a day at a time. Because of the uncertainty of the situation, the only option is just to bring each concern to Jesus and let Him take care of each one in it’s own time. Pray that God gives Nathan and me the grace to do this daily.

I am so grateful for each of you. Please know that each thing you have done, big or small, means so much! Most of all, your support in just reading and praying and caring is so important to us! I am truly thanking God for you each day!


jeweljannie said...

Dear Angie,
Many times during our time of sorrow, I can remember telling Papa, " I just don't know what to say or do, especially concerning what to tell the kids and when to tell it." But without fail God gave me just the words to say at just the time that they needed to be said. Do not fear. God will grant you supernatural wisdom, and He will let you know what to say , and when to say it. Just rest in Him. He is never late
Also, when we don't know how to pray, we can be assured that the Holy Spirit is praying for us with groanings too deep for words.

julie said...

Thanks for sharing specifics. Jeff and I will lift these up often. We love you!

Debi Cherry said...

Angie - I am Brandi's mom, Debi. I just want you to know that we are praying for your family. It's hard to know what to say, especially if you don't know someone very well, but from reading your words I can tell you are an amazing person. Brandi has told me how special you are. If there is anything at all I could possibly do, please let me or Brandi know.

Jana said...

Angie & Nathan, I am SO happy to have specific prayer requests from you. we are instructed to call out our requests by name, and I am happy to name before God the desires of your hearts and of mine. I love you FOUR tremendously.

Jennifer G. said...

I will definitely be praying for you. It is great to have specific prayer requests. Let me know if you need anything. I am praying for you guys. I know it is easier said then done but just take it a day at a time and God will give you the strength to make through that day.

Anonymous said...

God, in His great wisdom, has entrusted you both with this special child. He knows you will be faithful witnesses to Him and His Word. What a powerful testimony you are to His sustaining love, strength, peace and joy.
I pray many unsaved will come to know our Lord because of your faithfulness to Him and may He bless each one of your dear family. You are in our prayers!

A Sister in Christ

castleofpinkness said...

Sitting under Cinderella's castle in the Magic Kindgom, I am reading your blog and weeping. This is supposed to be a happy place. I weep for your painful blessing that God has given you, and I also weep while rejoicing with you at the hope God has given you. You have been trained well and loved much. It brings me joy to see your focus on Jesus. Our prayers continue and I pray you will be full of JOY!!!!!!!Much Love ,
Tammy Alsup