Monday, April 14, 2008

Bed and Breakfast

Nathan and I got the chance to step out of our comfort zone and visit a bed and breakfast for the first time this weekend. Now that the adoption has the possibility of becoming a reality at any time, I wanted to get away and dedicate an entire weekend to writing Poppy's book, and the b & b seemed like a nice backdrop for what I wanted to do. It turned out to be perfect, and the home-cooked, best breakfast I've ever had was just a bonus.

Taking the time to let my mind go back and retrace Poppy's birth and the months leading up to it was good, even rejuvenating. Already it's April, nearly five months since she was here, yet in many ways it seems like so much longer, and revisiting my old posts reminded me of so much I've already forgotten. As I re-traveled our journey and poured my words into the chapters of the book, the thing that stood out to me above everything else was the beauty that God wove through our story.

When I look back, I am filled with gratefulness over what we were given. I know that doesn't make sense. But God blew away every expectation from the very start, so I guess I should stop being surprised, and just recognize that it has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Him. Now that I look at my book, almost complete, what I see is a love story.

10 comments:

Laurie said...

Wow Angie,

This is beautiful and so filled with love and gratitude for the Lord. It is so hard to believe that it has almost been 5 months and it just blows me away to see where you are now. This truly is a love story between a faithful girl and her heavenly Father, woven together with the blessing of Poppy. I love you girl and it has ministered to my heart so much by following Poppy's story. I sure want an autographed copy of the book when it is completed and for sale. I can only imagine the blessings that are ahead for you, Nathan and Marianna as your new baby is so close to being yours!!:) I am so blessed by you.

Love, Laurie in Ca.

Emily said...

Good for you, girl! You are amazing and so is your God.... :)

Jen in Al said...

so thankful you were able to spend some special time writing your book! Can't wait to read it! praying for you and yours, jen in al

Karen said...

Angie,
A book I finished a while back had a part that has stuck with me, and it very much reminds me of you. Instead of waiting for the ball to drop, or bad things to happen, or fearing the future, wait to see how God will bless you through all those events. We should be anticipating all the blessings He wants to pour on us. So many people in your position would be stuck in grief, and I am not judging at all, beacuse I very likely might be one of them! I can definitely see myself dreading each day without my baby, dreading the holidays and everyday events that pass, but you have CHOSEN to not do that. You are waiting in anticipation for what God has in store for you. You are such a source of courage!

boltefamily said...

Thanks for sharing this. I have kind of hit a valley right now and am encouraged by your words. Hopefully soon I will be able to stand on the hill and see only beauty as well.

Cathy said...

I am so happy you went away and got her book almost finished. I am also looking forward to the news of the adoption. I can't tell you how many poppies I see now and you and your family come to mind. God Bless you on this journey.
Cathy & Annabel

Laurie said...

Angie,

Just stopping in tonight to let you know I love you and am praying Gods blessings all over the (4) of you:) I am so excited for you to be blessed as you bless me.

Love, Laurie in Ca.

The Lenda's said...

Angie-
Glad you and Nathan had a restful weekend at the B&B and you were able to work on Poppy's book and recall the sweet memories of her precious life and how God has carried you through. Praying that you continue to see His hand as he leads you and guides you through the adoption process.
Rachel in PA

Anonymous said...

Angie, I'm not sure why, but I am in tears and absolutely speechless - odd for me :)
-Debbie Rennie

Kenzie said...

Angie-

You're absolutely right... this is such a love story! I'm so thankful you were able to take a little break, get away and really focus. God continues to reveal how big He is through you.

Also, I LOVE Marianna singing... just hearing her even yesterday in the background was awesome... they bring such joy to our lives.

Love lots and thanks so much for all your help!

Praying for you guys,
Kenzie